Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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hiirah-Mahiirraahh, 05/08/1991Loves Sushi&Chocolate. I'm a fan of Purple/Red/Yellow. I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Talk it Loud
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Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Belonging Yatta!!!! I finally got my own digital camera... Haha, at the age of 18 nearly to 19 in next 6 month. OMG, talking about age it's kinda scary. We all know that once we turn 20 we're an adult But i wish to be a kid. I want to stay 18. I don't mind get bitten by a vampire or stay in never land. But if i turn into a vampire, my one strict rule is 'I DON'T WANT TO HARM HUMANS!' Staying in NeverLand like Peter Pan is fine, if his that handsome, i might fall for him... hahaha Freezing age it's not a kind of joke, instead if you wanted to die in an early stage. Ah!!! I wish, i could take some pictures of all my Favorite belonging. But my Purple-Violet darling is under operation, to get his heart right and the energy i wanted him to and be by my side. Then my touch darling is making me bored every time... The same things as always. No new Things NO Touchy. gtg.... sorry for my cheesy brain. *just finish reading smuts and romance**running away* Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Happy Birthday wishes Under the evening skies. Glimmering stars in the twilight skies The darkness of the night could never be beautiful. Seeing the beauty of the dark giving the night with wonderful feelings. Looking the candles light through the house. Making it more a enjoyable evening. Every year of expecting. Every year in once of a life time. Celebrating those years together with close friends and family. Blowing those candle lights and making a wish. Every Birthdays earn a different memories. From me to you, Happy Birthday. I wanted to wish Kamenashi Kazuya Happy 24th Birthday. Ganbatte, on your work and keep working hard for your hard core fans. We will be watching your back whenever you'll fall. So, Omedetou Tanjoubi. *clap clap* Secondly, I wanted to wish my young cousin Happy Sweet 16. Since, I wished her before her birthday. Now i wishing a Happy Birthday. OMG, I'm late wishing her birthday but i did it advanced. LOL Hope you enjoy your birthday. Birthday still doesn't end until end of the week. So, Happy Birthday Maisarah. (even though your birthday is 22 Feb) *sigh* now i done with birthday wishes. now i want to talk my dreams again... Two days ago i dreamt of Jin. Then the following day is Ueda Tatsuya. Then today is Kamenashi kazuya. Only a short dream which it doesn't satisfied with. I hope Joeii will read this... Hope Joeii doing Ok with her relationship.. Ganbatte, Joeii!!! Keep on fighting. If you feel bad i always be here... Monday, February 22, 2010
Dreamt that I've always dreamed OMG, I can’t believe it! I dreamt of him. Even though it’s short, but it’s so… I’m speechless. My favourite idol; AkanishiJin I can’t remember how it started. But I only remember I was with him He was wearing his usual beanie rather than he tying ponytail. It started around afternoon I guess? I was working (not sure). And I got trap in the room (like classroom) and the doors are locked. I was with a person was sleeping inside the room. The person didn’t move an inch, the person was nearly a wax mannequin don’t worry it’s human. I guess the person guard the room inside. My brain possessed a funny thought. Like whenever the rooms are locked, the inner door has the lock attached while the outside you need a key to open the lock. I firstly thought of that. That whenever a person outside wanted to come in the person in side will let you in. Just like houses, a simple of that. Okay, let just get started or I will lost this memories of my dream. I guess I did a mistake of get trap inside. I guess it’s not work. I was trap, trying to figure out how to get out of the room. But when I was at the front door, trying to open the locked, I heard someone trying to open the door at the back. I knew who it was, as my heart beat beats fast. I guess we were a ‘thing’ in my dream. While he was trying to get me out from the room, I tried to open up in the front door. When I saw the locks, I unlocked the locks; the locks look like buttons. There I was out, looking back to him as he still struggling with the door and was surprised to see me out in front. After I got escape, I tried to lock the door back, seeing the glance of the ‘guard’. Jin walks towards me and it’s my turn to struggle to lock it back. I tried and it was useless I can’t locked it, and I didn’t want to make the inside person awake. I just close it with unbury unlock. I thought it was funny, but seriously I don’t know what to do. I grab his hand as we run out from the place. Then we slow down, walking thru the corridors. When I realize his arm was elbowing around my neck. Surely, it was so fluffy. It really sent me shivers and butterflies in my stomach. I hold his hand; I can know that I was smiling. Talking away, I think we did kiss. And it’s blacked out. Thanks to mum, I woke up. Continue sleep to dream him again but it turned out different. English was the way we speak since he can speak English. P.S. I posted it yesterday in my onsugar blog because my blogspot giving me trouble. so i'm re-posting. Thursday, February 18, 2010
Acceptance WAHHHHH....... I'M soooo surprised.... i thought of tomorrow checking the result. but after read my ite fren msg. i kinda have tension up... WE GOT INTO A SAME COURSE!!! ISN'T THAT WONDERFUL!!!! But hopeful we got into a same class. then i got a friend i can talk with and someone i know. ARHHHHH..... i freaking out here..... I got into Civil and Structure Engineering Design...*tension up* that's all i'm gonna say... just about my course haha... i'm so happy. i know i didn't get the same as Joeii did. I did it because of my own choice rather than follow people footsteps... This course i'm targeting my future. I hope i made the right choice... yah tuhan, harap aku dapat sama course dgn kawan ite saya... Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Heard about my friend having her hard time to adjust her heart. I feel bad over her. The person treat her like a pain. Like once of a story I've red(past tense of read). Listen her whimpers, sobs on the phone, I was nearly panic!!! I don't know what to do. I only could possible to soothe her. Even if i joke, I was afraid I would say something wrong. But i did to cheer her up... hehe... Now I was a little worried about my story writing fanfiction. cause i scared it will turn bad and lame and so on.... But i could possible i want to make it and like my friend read even if it's a BoyxBoy love. The story I want to write have a little bit like Cinderella but it's totally different. Very different. I've came up with the story line. But I've always stuck whenever on prologue. I sucks at starting the story. I already knew and plan the middle of the story. But i really can't think the starting. Hmm... Why not give me time to think? But it's not possible. I always got distracted. haha... I've always wanted to show this picture... Sorry if you feel disgusted. Isn't HE pretty? I can't say beautiful. only pretty.. got to go.. Sunday, February 14, 2010
Is it really okay for me to post picture here? I felt a little tipsy for having to post here. i don't one people to think I'm crazy. I just has the reason why i must to post the pictures. Because my unforgivable iTouch is making me insane. Once i transfer pictures to it. it over write it. how can i get easily mad? sorry about my temper. Now i want to do my job... Don't ask... I know i'm probably crazy about them. that is true. but only for itouch. But seriously aren't they a cool couple? i mean good when they are together? Friday, February 12, 2010
Shhh.... 28 days to go.... Want to know? Just need to wait next month. actually it's a normal news. but i like surprise looks on my friends. Actually is nothing. i felt like useless to tell them. They would thought it's normal, no need to be excited about the trip. i think it's better to tell them on the same week. but i could give them some clues haha... But... i'm bad at it... Instead keeping it, i burst it. haha... just tell the news... i need to get my imagination work. And my English too. Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Pain Gesture, Unsigned Holiday The word pain wouldn't let go from my dictionary. The gesture of pain. The signs of emotions and wounds. It's been a week that my feet earning a painful blisters. It was a pain! in a long time sign i didn't wore a high heel. Now i just got a cut. Accidents happen which i hate it. I was trying to pulled out iTouch charger adapter when i wanted to charged my PSP. I struggle with the adapter. trying to pulled out but i earn a stupid cut on my finger. Haha... why am i tell you this haha... i'm so random.... Holiday... Hmm... school will start in April so i have another 2 months to survived in this house.. Boredom everyday... Such a tantrum. A sudden planned caught up from Mum's lips. Planning to go for a holiday. Before these thoughts, it happens last Sunday at Grandma house just to celebrate her birthday. I don't even know how old is she now? haha, what a bad grandchild. My aunties and uncles were talking about trip to Indonesia. Mum never get interested to the talk. She only things, if we go we ended up no money to afford to go. That was all in her brain. Its hard to describe in words and sentence just seeing her gestures of thoughts i could understand. The planning to go on May, which mum thought May? They say Air Asia having a promotion on Vesak Day. Cost about $38.00 if i'm not wrong. But then dad say if we go on May, mum would get tired, and i have to skipped the classes. Then they thought going next month. Like... O...M...G... so early la!!!! But it's kinda exciting anyway... Yesterday i was trying to booking online ticket in Air aisa first, but mum felt a sudden shocked how expensive the cost plus with the hidden price too... Then she asked me to changed to Lion Air... Cheap? Yes! But the booking thing kinda pissed me off... Kept going Error and Error. we called but they say try again.. Lots of people trying to book too... i was fed up, and call them again and say if it's possible to buy the ticket in their branch. Today Mum, dad going to buy the tickets.. hope we got the tickets... Oh Ya... I forgot today is 10 Feburary. Happy Birthday bxxxx sister. and today the day KAT-TUN came out their new single haha... just need to wait in two weeks. then i can go buy... i just invited my cousin to company to go... just waiting if she's free only... Wah... Hisashiburi da ne.... (its been a long time) ja na... need to go... Help me... Cinderella or Fairies? help me decide? Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Anti-fans? What the Hell? Yarakashi fans = fans who are disruptive and do not follow the rules As i can say a little like anti-fans. After reading some facts and fiction. i was totally mad at those fans Like WHAT THE... Stalking them, shouting at them during concert. What kind of fans are that. since they bought tickets to the concert, why shouted bad things about them rather enjoy the show? I would say stupid fans. Attended the concert just the matter to shout bad things to them, please lah, these fans aren't belong from this fandom. I feel bad for the other hard core fans or normal fans didn't had their chance to bought their concert tickets. But these fans, it just the matter to kill them. Shouting to the idols or showing the sign board like, Shut up Go and Die Slut and many more. this people won't respect them. once they make the idols mad or sad they are satisfied with their job. but still they wanted to do make to make the idol really hate to do his/her job. What do you think? Does anti-fans should stop this job. I felt hurt to those idols whom been criticize by those damn bitches. haha... just want to say it.. Monday, February 1, 2010
FUCK!!! Today is totally NOT my day.. It may be my fault. but i hate you today mum. Dammit sia... when can i have the chance to do what i want... i just making then use it once thats all.... Seriously! just dont tell me; you think you already work ar? Wow lao really pissed me off. what do you think? spending in shops! i wont do that kind anymore. its been two days im trying to search my card. but dammit, you hid it well. why dont you feel how i felt? im your daughter. mum would feel how the daughter feel. unless im not. i prefer runaway from here. cruel parents. im the one who always prefer from your control. Hate it. I Hate it! |
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